i get it

i do get it , its just feelings and fear , nothing serious but im afraid to step up and see what happens, i wanna see what happens if i don’t give up but i’m scared to fail, i’m scared of losing control or fainting or dying , help me god …life won’t wait for me, i gotta pick myself up and try but i’m scared i need support and someone by my side .

i’m gonna start by going back to school and trying to stay there and not giving up . i mean i gotta start somewhere, even though school is kinda terrifying rn but i gotta do it

i wish you luck if you are reading this and having problems…start somewhere, we can’t expect changes when we haven’t even tried or changed our ways .