i get it

i do get it , its just feelings and fear , nothing serious but im afraid to step up and see what happens, i wanna see what happens if i don’t give up but i’m scared to fail, i’m scared of losing control or fainting or dying , help me god …life won’t wait for me, i gotta pick myself up and try but i’m scared i need support and someone by my side .

i’m gonna start by going back to school and trying to stay there and not giving up . i mean i gotta start somewhere, even though school is kinda terrifying rn but i gotta do it

i wish you luck if you are reading this and having problems…start somewhere, we can’t expect changes when we haven’t even tried or changed our ways .

how it feels

anxiety feels like your whole body is racing, your mind, your heart , and you can’t keep up with it even if you are trying as everyone around you always tells you, try they said , i hate these words, no one knows what it feels like if they don’t have it , we are trying every second of the day to seem normal , because i don’t want anyone to notice it on me , i don’t want empathy or pitty, i wanna be normal, funny thing i forgot how normal feels like … i’m desperate for any kind of help , anxiety ruins you on every aspect if you don’t face it , but the thing is no one knows how long we have to face it until it goes away , just face it and wait , that’s the only plan .